oh my arms died.

cos today, it was shannen/nennash's birthday celebration!

so first went to her house to meet up, then went ice skating

at kallang leisure park. had loads of fun! yok teng,

cheryl, brennan(aka shannen's bro) and andrew

(aka shannen's cuz) came over too. then we had

KFC and i had to leave for piano! *sadsad*

so didn't watch angels and demons with them.

but went back afterwards to her house. then yok teng and

cheryl went home earlier cos yok teng wants to

watch her drama and

cheryl is subjected to the

torture of the peranakan ball. (i think it's a torture)

anyways. i stayed on then suddenly all

the cousins started arriving during our

house of the dead iii marathon. we played for 2 hours!

on shannen's wii. the thing was pirated so not

graphically advanced enough to scare

us. in the end me and shannen made it the furthest but

not the end. ahhh.

then we had a wii sports game and everyone

was very nice... had loads of fun beating

shannen's uncle (okay almost) at

boxing. (which shredded my muscles disabling

free movement of my very exhausted arms)

then after sweating bathtubs, went to john's (aka shannen's

other cousin) house for the last 15 mins of

arsenal vs manchester united match. football yes.

i had a reaction. how surprising.

so i enjoyed it totally and her family was

very nice and everything. at least they don't describe

rooms "like shit". well. they don't use much coarse

language which is rather refreshing after

all the immature male homosapiens in my

class screaming wah lan and all that other

crap. so fun was of the essense today.

on friday, had full band as usual. and mr ng criticized our

school system and made it sound really

nerdy and everything is about studying

and it's really rigid and stuff. well i kind of believe him, which

is a first. then it rained and stormed

outside so it was really super cold and i could really reach

all my high notes. which made mr ng check all

of us, and i couldn't play the high G so he

was like "you keep playing like that you can

forget about playing french horn and brass instruments already"

he said it with a very final tone. which was pretty shocking

and demoralizing, obviously. then he demoted me

to 4th horn...oh dear now i have to learn the piece all over again.

ahh i wish i stayed in junior band. where i sort of belong.

and it was sooo embarrassing. oh deardeardear.

ahhh. i'm so worried about the whole RS

thingy, which my groupmates aren't exactly being

co-operative about. so i guess

i'll do 4 articles that'll have to pass off

as our lit. review, and then i can relax while

they do the survey and report. i have to nail this

or else i'll flunk math at the end of the year.

i am so scared i would cry.

heaven help me. i don't know where to go.

lost and so confused. wherever i turn, darkness

engulfs me. step forward or back, there

wouldn't be no difference, i'd still be empty and

hollow so extend your grace...