just realised the plain truth:

probably not going to watch half-blood prince.

omgomg. avoiding the "f" in the between

to avoid getting struck by lightning (it is going

to rain). yes i'm a catholic. sigh.

alright, so i'm notnotnot going to see

draco in action. wtf? cannot express how

sexy he is. and how much

i wantwantwant to watch this

show with a fellow draco-lover...

watching with parents is not the same.

haiz... read this blog while seeing his

results on google images and

it says EXACTLY what i feel!

"he'll only change for you"

"got the schoolboy thing down"

"is achingly sexy"

YES!

well, the whole point in this is that

it's a lame fairytale, and they hardly ever

come true, which makes me some lame pathetic loser

beacause i still believe

in them, even as i am writing this.

i am SUCH a hopeless romantic.

oh dear. what will my life be like

if i carry on like this? it's so messed up,

with so much disappointments

and dissatisfactions.

and now there's something bugging me

and i'm so afraid of it blowing up

everything i've created so far.

i told myself to make a new life

in dunman high, but i don't know

why it ends up being so hard, and it

becoming like my previous exsistence naturally

without my notice. i'm so imbalanced, i need

to find my equilibrium.

what is me? personality crisis here.

should i go for meditition classes?

no, it'd be way too boring.

i can't define myself, yes, not even i can

define myself. isn't that just

another sign on how confused i am?

i don't know what i want, who i am,

what i should do, why i am here

on this earth. how did i come to this?

just complicating the hell out of it all.

what was originally there is now smeared,

what has been replaced is just fading away.

i know i've changed. for the better or worse?

my friends won't tell me the real answer, so

who should i look out for?

a million questions. left unanswered, probably.

the only one i know has been acting strangely,

recently. why?

i don't know. but i care.

who can i trust?

i'll be waiting for you.