i have decided not to look at my tagboard.
it's demoralizing.
okay, so something to away my artistic
talent of writing PMs, particularly emo
and ALWAYS about love. trying to get back on my feet now.
to quote the great Mr Hong,
"is your broken heart fixed?"
ah well. don't know yet.
i have gone rather mad these few days and started blogging,
facebooking and youtubing again.
which i could easily abstain from if
i wanted to, or was just
too tired to think about it.
well, to get over my tiredness i'm gonna try sleeping at like 9pm
every day. cos it really sucks to have to
be suddenly so lethargic in the middle
of a fairly interesting lesson.
and having to nap in the afternoon, which
i did today for don't know how long.
ahhh. die le.
school was... quite nice today,
actually learned quite a few things. i
can see that with Mr Teo for our history teacher i
might actually begin to like the subject,
and from now i on i know i need to copy endlessly during
his lesson. that's nice, i kind of like that.
science was...okay. might be
joining clean and green week with our hopefully
successful eco-roof prototype.
and survive through the stuggle meanwhile.
still quite hyped up about
shao shan's sweet 16, and she did say
that she was very touched. WAHAHA, being my friend
comes with insurance de, covers birthdays as well.
can claim present and a lot of fun. (:
another thing i learnt today-
it hurts to be different.
well, not only today, learnt it a long
time ago, from like p6...
but it still poses a problem for me.
i wish i could stop growing up...
or just grow slower, at the same pace as everyone
else. to blend in sometimes and
not stick out like a sore thumb.
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have to study for chengyu test tomorrow!
seriously, there are FIFTY chengyus
and i can only remember about 30?
diediedie. i really hope to be consistently
good for this year so i'm trying
my best to work out every subject and
put in my best effort for it,
even if it means sacrificing sleep and
maybe even more things to sacrifice in the future!
but thing is i really want to do this,
i know i can.
so with desire, i believe.
with desire and belief i will
expect and set goals, and with
persistency i will achieve them.
(:(: it's nice to have a psychologist-conductor.
so i will NOT fail at believing in myself
no matter how tough the going gets.
no matter what others think of me.
no matter what i have to give up.
and least of all, not a relationship issue.
and while i'm free, i'll think up
a cycling outing, find kaki and then
celebrate what i have in style;
i suddenly miss those times in p3p4 when
the "moonfire butterflies"
(and sometimes other people who came
on and out of our lives)
would gather at the school garden
during recess and bring all our snacks to share
and celebrate CNY.
we even gave each other fake angpows.
(filled with candy and other gifts.)

i'm treading on hot stones wherever you are...