just realised the plain truth:

probably not going to watch half-blood prince.

omgomg. avoiding the "f" in the between

to avoid getting struck by lightning (it is going

to rain). yes i'm a catholic. sigh.

alright, so i'm notnotnot going to see

draco in action. wtf? cannot express how

sexy he is. and how much

i wantwantwant to watch this

show with a fellow draco-lover...

watching with parents is not the same.

haiz... read this blog while seeing his

results on google images and

it says EXACTLY what i feel!

"he'll only change for you"

"got the schoolboy thing down"

"is achingly sexy"

YES!

well, the whole point in this is that

it's a lame fairytale, and they hardly ever

come true, which makes me some lame pathetic loser

beacause i still believe

in them, even as i am writing this.

i am SUCH a hopeless romantic.

oh dear. what will my life be like

if i carry on like this? it's so messed up,

with so much disappointments

and dissatisfactions.

and now there's something bugging me

and i'm so afraid of it blowing up

everything i've created so far.

i told myself to make a new life

in dunman high, but i don't know

why it ends up being so hard, and it

becoming like my previous exsistence naturally

without my notice. i'm so imbalanced, i need

to find my equilibrium.

what is me? personality crisis here.

should i go for meditition classes?

no, it'd be way too boring.

i can't define myself, yes, not even i can

define myself. isn't that just

another sign on how confused i am?

i don't know what i want, who i am,

what i should do, why i am here

on this earth. how did i come to this?

just complicating the hell out of it all.

what was originally there is now smeared,

what has been replaced is just fading away.

i know i've changed. for the better or worse?

my friends won't tell me the real answer, so

who should i look out for?

a million questions. left unanswered, probably.

the only one i know has been acting strangely,

recently. why?

i don't know. but i care.

who can i trust?

i'll be waiting for you.

well, today was the most

hectic day in the whole of my timetable.

all 6 core subjects.

on a single day.

oh no.

so well, science was fun, we

played with microscopes

and cheek cells. mine looked utterly

cool under the microscope okay,

like little cute brown dots.

i wish the microscope had higher

resolution, it would've been neat to

see the nucleus and everything bouncing

around in there.

the cell is so tiny but everything is

so blown up in biology. oh dear.

and i changed seats in science lab!

so now i'm in the same corner as in class!

the teacher's right, all the way

at the back. :D:D

anyway.

(cue enigmatic lines)

isabel is good.

she knows my secret.

is it really so obvious?

succeeded in part of my plan

today. now i must ask

anni and isabel for more tips.

and there's this really nice

rhythm thing the guys in my class

were doing, wenjia and i sooooo

addicted to it. lols!

okay, so i have the LOUSIEST time

management in history.

whole pile of homework undone!

partly cos i had first piano lesson with

ms teo! she's cool, yeah.

finally getting individual piano lessons.

woots.

just done science with bellerie, honestly

i'm the worst partner ever!

she's like doing all the

cool aesthetics stuff and i'm doing

content. eww. okay bellerie

YOU RAWK.

so gotta go back.

just to tell you

school's getting complicated.

okay, so i fixed the previous post,

the song was all stuck together and

gross-looking. i will seriously consider typing

out the second song as edting the damn html is

tiring. like really tiring.

just keep typing
all the way and try.

oh yeah find the words in the middle of the

mad computer-speak.

just try.

okay i have decided that housework

is hazardous. know why? yesterday

i did the dishes, so there's two ontop

of each other. (sick people stop thinking

about *ahem*). i dropped the first one

but there wasn't even a scratch on it,

so i continued washing the other one then

a sharp sting shot up my arm

(not writing this for the compo marks,

but that's exactly how i would describe it.)

i stared at my hand- it was white, then slowly

blood trickled out of a wound on my

palm between the index and third finger.

rinsed it with water and have been

careful ever since. mum had one knife-cut

once and it opened before it closed. that

was my major worry. literally open wound.

so today in school.

felt scared.

felt shocked.

totally confused now. what to

do? not my field of expertise, actually.

which makes this alot worse.

(sorry for the enigmatic lines. let's get on

with the post.)

FEMME FATALE~FOR THE PAIZHABOR

she creeps through your heart

in the shadows that lie

cross the path of the angels

and she'll take your hand

jump over mountains

soar over oceans

off to the rainbows

five seconds later

you'll find yourself breathing

shallow and ragged

as she kisses you slow

she's oh-so-fatal, oh

intoxicating

reverberating

her voice steals through your soul

she's dangerous

when you find out

it's too late to regret

oh, but you won't

when she walks by

all you roses wilt and die

burn with desire

but she's so poisonous

two minutes later

she's done with it all

boy the higher you climb

the faster you fall...

oh

but you'll remember her grace

her hands on your face
fell for her charm

melted in her arms

though she's bad, yeah

boy you know you want her, ooh

finally i came up with something

original and not trashy. enjoy.

COME RIGHT BACK~ FOR MEG

you think you know me

you think i'm gonna come crawling back

you think imma call you name

say i'm sorry

you think it's alright

to have her and want me at the same time

but i've had enough

not tonight

i might be new but i'm saying this now

i'm gonna hurt you though i'm still learning how

save your lies for some other thing

who might need some help

i'm gonna come right back at you tonight

woah-oh

you're so confused and hurt

let me wipe that sorry look

of your face onto the floor

where it belongs

i might be new but i'm saying this now

i'm gonna hurt you though i'm still learning how

save your lies for some other thing

who might need some help

i'm gonna come right back at you tonight

you've had enough chances and

sense to know you were wrong

time after time

but i still kept going strong

you shouldn't have carried on

but it's too late

cause i'm walkin out that door...

i might be new but i'm saying this now

i'm gonna hurt you though i'm still learning how

save your lies for some other thing

who might need some help

i'm gonna come right back at you tonight

short one, to pacify you all.

day 1 in DHS is always boring and slacky,

making me miss SAC even more here.

went on a tag-a-thon during assembly,

which was held in the computer

lab thanks to h1n1 and the ever-awesome

ms ng! i wonder how she manages to

always get the lab. and she doesn't

scold us or anything when we whip out

our headers, only not during geog lah.

then hosted a mass-convo with

viv and anni, where i realised a few things:

a)i'm really lag on this relationship crap

b)when anni gets your headers, don't expect it back

c)my songlist makes me cry. on the inside, of course

AND...

d) dhsmail convo sucks a lot.

well of course MSN is so much better but i have promised

myself to minimize using of computer in

view of my vision and sem2 goals,

which just means no MSN-ing.

enjoy me being offline, peoples. okay so we went for

RS which was (as usual) sucky,

and i'm getting more and more pissed

about as the damn thing is so near but i really

have no time to do it, and i don't

expect jefferey, ngee siang or

yee ther (especially not him, sorry) to do

anything. expecting the worst, hoping for

the best. optimism at its best.

i shall now reply tags. which age have

i last done that? sorry guys.

yep mrs ho OWES US, cherylchew!

thought of going out with her for an

all-expense-paid for teacher's day?

thanks for all the tags, sijie, and woah,

boys beware. vivan change blog never tell

me uh. ;d oh yes, joeychiew relinked.

dear X, i had no choice, had to choose dhs

and band or another package, so hard desicion.

for full story contact me. and i do not

appreciate anonymous taggers. sorry.

hey sab if you look girly not my problem lor.

it suits you. aww rachelt so sweet always tag.

yay. hiiiiiiii clarissa. i have to tell

you apart from carissa. remind me.

i have left a tag on yimin's

blog, so please invite me for privated blog.

thanks. [oh thanks for missing me all

of you nice people when i was away on LOA.

so sweeeeeeet.]

erms niya i'll probably sms you to arrange

a date and time for the convo to arrange a date

and time for the movie, but maybe

i can't go as i have aimed to stay away.

yes i'm very strict with myself with the whole

MSN thingy. it's formal now. and the going-outs

are limited too. and my fast-food cold turkey-ing.

oh yeah i have dedicated one post to megan fox...

so yeah read and tag or die.

haha anni, don't so angry luhs. relax. bad for blood

pressure. well dj i was kind of getting

bored of the summer love now, albeit

it being reallyreally nice. trying to find

a really paikia one that suits me :D

played netball today. i was the centre.

ran till my lungs burst. jiaxin and isabel

are really good, see what

5 years of netball could've brought me?

instead i chose band. oh the shame.

i just spent about 1h 30mins of precious

studying time (can't believe my fingers

just typed that...STOP DERANGED GUAI

KIA FINGERS!) to change my blogface so

be bloody happy about it.

no pressure. *smiles wickedly*

alright, so i haven't posted in like the last century or so.

have they invented an ozone-shooter yet?

or come up with narnia 7? still not over the narnia fever.

anyway, i have been super busy after LOA-ing okay,

lots and lots of homework and stuff to do,

imagine, i haven't even got to history yet. D:

still have chengyu test to study for...o lordy!

my computer is damn laggy for some unbeknownst reason,

just when i need it the most. aiyah.

i shall not post pics, to save Dell from a certain death.

see? so nice to my computer.

anyway... did some researching on megan fox,

thanks to niya and the media's numerous claims

on her being a *quote* "tranny". (for those

of you who are unfamiliar with the angmoh slang,

it's transvestite. bisexual. whatever.)

and i have found out that

a)she's still pretty. altered pretty. weird pretty.

b) she's really, REALLY rude. maybe she should be trashmouth instead.

c) she wants salma hayek's boobs.

so, i have stopped >THERE<>

eyes from popping out of their sockets or something.

so now she's a bit shaded in my vision, no so shiny anymore.

hehe the shine went to NEW DIVIDE!!! ahhhhh.

such a good song. how could i have hated it.

niya. shia sucks. he kissed. a. man.(who became a girl,

no less. but still. c'mon. a french with the SAME SEX?!)

i shall update you on my going-outs.

FRIDAY!

finished school early! cos the school felt so bad

about cancelling all our camps and stuff. ( hey dhs

you still owe us about 100 hours or free time okay. but at least

no CCA*insert the screaming* for week 3)

so i went out to suntec with wenjia, anni and isabel!

we watched ice age 3 wooooooooooots.

such an awesome movie! should have catched the

3-d version, the flying part would've been

WAAAY cool. and by the way diego has all the qualities of my

kind of perfect boyfriend. too bad he's staying single. cue human

diego. i should stop now. yes.

then i bought this dark grey cardigan from cotton on

with isabel! (she got light grey) thankyouthankyou

girl friend. otherwise i would have paid

double the price.

so when i went home, mum said we were watching iceage3.

yes you heard right.

SAME MOVIE 6 HOURS APART!

watched with steven's family and macau-ian cousins.

cute. noisy. EXTREMELY SMART.

he's like 7 and he knows his timestables,

wants to dig up dinos and knows the word paleontologist.

so don't play play.

then i felt really bad that i spent so much money

so i have made it a point not to go out or shop

or chat on MSN or a host of other stuff till end of school,

unless really neccessary.

this will be hard. prayer is key.

anyway, i got this roll of wire which i haven't paid

dad for, and twisted it to make "be happy"

for teacher's day... not speaking further.

SAC teachers only, my fingers will get

blisters twisting the rest. hehe absence makes the

heart grow fonder, i never gave teacher's day

presents in primary school. will i make

that a tradition? i wonder.

so i have typed myself out. i will update you

on 1f chairman and stuff like that another time.

hklm!<3